You and Dean were cheating when you began and your marital problems and dishonesty are no secret, Tori. You can only improve your situation once you can be honest about it. I hope that is just your TV persona saying what you have to, for money and that in reality you are working to keep it together for those two sweet little babies.
My thoughts are unstoppable as I ponder UnknownMami's latest entry: What is marriage?
Its easy to act kindly when we feel "the feeling" and when our needs are met. Love is acting so when "the feeling" has escaped. Mine is currently AWoL. I once heard an older married lady explain the success of her 60 year marriage by saying that they were lucky to have never fallen out of love at the same time.